Here and there. Then and now.

Sometimes life gets a bit confusing. You don’t know who you are or what you’re really about. Well, you know, but it’s as if you subtly deny it and pretend you don’t know. And an attitude of such, of such mystery, is both fascinating and terrifying all at the same time.

Do I have inspirational thoughts? Sometimes I feel as though I do. I’m glad I got to share these with the world for four months, but now that I’m back, I’m pretty sure many of those readers will stop caring about what I have to say…in approximately one months or less that is. You have to allow that post-travel vibe to die off slowly.

You know, I was nothing special in Uganda and I’m nothing special back here on home soil. My thoughts, challenges, and conclusions remain the same. Perspective? The same. Opinion? The same. Religious views? The same. I am the same….the same, but different. Isn’t that just so complicated? Not really. We are always changing, as human beings in a dynamic world, but our inner us, the “Emily” God created me to be since day 1 of my life…is still the same.

I’m not going to pretend to understand this concept, because I don’t. This is just what they call processing…just processing folks.

Perhaps now is the time to sidestep the abstract and walk into the concrete world. Because, believe it or not, I do have discernible feelings, concerns and thoughts. One of those is, no doubt,  mr. dear muzungu. I’ve stepped back into America and now have left my house. Today during jury duty lunch break, I went walking downtown. I watched people interact with those they know and don’t know. I listened to passing conversations occurring as colleagues  walk down the street together. I observed all the different facial expressions, outfits, self-decor, postures. As I observe and study, I think of Muzungu. I wonder what I would think of his disposition were I to see him just passing down the street. Would he look like he was displaced? I wonder how he would feel. How interesting it is how much outward wear and expression says about a person. I am more or less doing the same thing I was doing four months ago when I first entered Uganda.

 

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  1. Candy Hershey

    Just read Hebrews 11:1-13 this morning…
    Your writing & thoughts just bring it to life…
    “What is faith? It is the confident assurance that what we hope for is going to happen. It is the evidence of things we cannot see. God gave his approval to people in days of old because of their faith…”(11:1;2)
    “It was by faith that Abraham obeyed when God called him to leave home and go to another land that God would give him as his inheritance. He went without knowing where he was going. And even when he reached the land God promised him, he lived there by faith — for he was like a foreigner, living in a tent…”(11:8;9a)
    “They agreed that they were no more than foreigners & nomads here on earth. And obviously people who talk like that are looking forward to a country they can call their own. If they meant the country they came from, they would have found a way to go back. But they were looking for a better place, a heavenly homeland. That is why God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a heavenly city for them…”(11:14-16)
    “So, you see, it to is impossible to please God without faith.” (11:5)
    Emily, you are pleasing to God! Please keep writing your inspirational thoughts & experiences and I’ll keep reading & praying.

    “Faith is a bend in the road that takes you beyond sight. It is a step along the precipice of fear, yet a step protected by the knowledge that I am there with you.
    i know you seek answers, beloved. You live in a world powered by that seeing is believing. But i offer

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  2. Candy Hershey

    Just read Hebrews 11:1-13 this morning…
    Your writing & thoughts just bring it to life…
    “What is faith? It is the confident assurance that what we hope for is going to happen. It is the evidence of things we cannot see. God gave his approval to people in days of old because of their faith…”(11:1;2)
    “It was by faith that Abraham obeyed when God called him to leave home and go to another land that God would give him as his inheritance. He went without knowing where he was going. And even when he reached the land God promised him, he lived there by faith — for he was like a foreigner, living in a tent…”(11:8;9a)
    “They agreed that they were no more than foreigners & nomads here on earth. And obviously people who talk like that are looking forward to a country they can call their own. If they meant the country they came from, they would have found a way to go back. But they were looking for a better place, a heavenly homeland. That is why God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a heavenly city for them…”(11:14-16)
    “So, you see, it to is impossible to please God without faith.” (11:5)
    Emily, you are pleasing to God! Please keep writing your inspirational thoughts & experiences and I’ll keep reading & praying.

    “Faith is a bend in the road that takes you beyond sight. It is a step along the precipice of fear, yet a step protected by the knowledge that I am there with you.
    i know you seek answers, beloved. You live in a world powered by that seeing is believing. But I offer offer a patience that makes your faith steady & unflappable. And I offer to reveal my glory in you, growing brighter, so that everyone around you gets a glimpse of me.
    How I long for you to see your obstacles, heartbreaks, struggles for what they are : opportunities to seek me on your knees & experience my grace. Whatever comes, earnestly look to me, asking for help to believe. Many saints throughout history can testify: I will take care of the rest.”(Heaven Calling)

    Love &prayers, Candy

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